what happens when you've found something you've been scared about for the first time
like being in "true" love for the first time
now I thought I would never get over ____ but then romeo (still code name I cant think of anything better to call him) came along and could make me laugh more then anyone I know and as if last year didnt even happen
all the drama that went on in grade 10 didnt happen ........

on friday he comes to school and is like we have to go to my locker for a sec k ? ya okay then when we get to his locker he pulls out this huge teddy bear
it was our one month
I didnt know if he would remember or not I wrote him this -coughs- three paged note explaining to him some stuff that Im a bit nervous to talk about like I told him he was my first actually boyfriend and how Im still a bit shy about putting my whole heart out there for him because I dont want him or me to get hurt in the end and just telling him how much I really do love him okay I put it I love you to piecs :P but still I do
,but me being who I am I always put someone else before my own feeling's and such
he is such a sweet funny well probably one of the best guys Ive come across and I really dont want to see him get hurt

Im kinda scared though I dont want be be hurt again and I dont want to go though that again
Im a really big suckheart and put well basically everyone elses needs and feelings before my own which I know one day'll get me into trouble for it but thats just the way I am really and this is one person in my life I dont want to see get hurt
I care about him so much but I dont want to see him or me in the end hurt but its hard to say that anyone can be together forever just really hope this fairytale has a happy ever after
I really cant wait to see him tomorrow

I really hope he likes what I got him for Christmas ______ finally phoned and said it came in so I get to pick it up tomorrow FINALLY I was starting to panic that i wouldn't get here in time




so what do you do when your "truly" in love for the first time
take it for all that is givin
dont look ahead in the future you'll be so caught up in it you'll just miss whats going on in the here and now
not worry and let it be
cuz life goes like a bullet so fast its like your six years old and the take a nap then in the blink of a year you wake up and your twenty five and your high school sweetheart becomes your hubby
take it for all its worth and be thankful that god has bestoded this gift upon you