I still can't believe that all this started with a little note over two months ago, I seems longer then that back then I said I put my heart up on a shelf scared to take it down for someone else because I didnt think I would be able to, but then okay Im going to cut it out with the code names from now on I always get confused when I over read them :P anyways when Sid came alongI dont know there was something about him. I didnt know what but there was something there and after all that happened whenever I saw him at school he could always find some way to make me laugh that or he'd bug me that Im shorter then him I keep forgetting he's younger then me by four months so not a lot but still it doesnt seem like He is the first guy that whenever Im with him I feel like I dont have to try to act like basically what everyone else wants most high school girls to be and that I can just be myself. One of my really good guy friends once said to me " Love isnt about finding someone you cant live without or being what every one else whats you to be but being yourself and finding someone who loves everybit of it" At first I didnt really understand what he was talking about until I came across Sid. When I first met him he said he just couldnt figure me out ... uh okay I said and just laughed but now I kinda appreciate it because I dont wanna be the kinda person that can read as easily as a picture book.
And he just well its hard to explain really the easiest way to explain it is hes amazing. Then last night I was hanging out with Ribby at the mall and she's like "ya I can see it now I'll be the brides maid at your wedding throwing up all night and Ill be all "I love you becka Sid your a jackass" what did I do""Nothing!!!" hahah I was laughing so hard then it got me thinking if we where really going to make it that far ? I would like to think so , I hope so.
Hes the kinda guy I always imagined myself with funny,caring, responsible, has a horse like me lol and actually has a plan with what he's going to do with his life he wants to go in for R.C.M.P he said he was thinking about military but he said" well a special person changed my mind"awee ^_^I think I would be really scared if he did choose military. I want to get into forensics sort of a crime scene investigation type of job. but enough of what I want to do after grad I cant believe its coming so soon already.
Today we went skating for a couple hours when we got to the rink he just laughed when he saw I brought hockey skates it was funny he was like I skate almost every day then he fell five times I didnt fall at all hahah. It was alot of fun today and he was being really sweet today when we where going around he saw the Zamboni and was like that is the most beautiful! and you of course I didnt say anything but I could tell I was blushing hard and we were quiet and of course he fell we both started laughing so hard, and when they where flooding the rink they got everyone to get off the ice for fifteen minutes so we went and sat in the stands for a bit and as usually we made dorks out of our selves in the stands sitting there poking each other or trying to steal each others skates silly stuff like that then cuddled for a bit. I was so happy to see him today I was really excited to see him outside of school where I dont have to worry about getting to class on time or worry about grades it was nice I think Im falling hard for him , I think Im falling hard and I dont want to see him get hurt mentally or physically. Some say we'r a couple crazy kids I say they dont know the half of it
Dont worry about what you dont know
Lifes a dance you learn as you go
sometimes you lead sometimes you follow
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