wow this weekends valentines day already .... honestly I think its kind of a silly holiday myself but who can complain right?

anyways so its three and a half months now and Sid still hasnt met dad Im a bit nervous about it , his mom wants to meet dad too but I dont know Im a bit nervous about how it'll play out my vision of it is him coming over and dad sitting at the table with the 22 cleaned and loaded ..... sigh tipical dad story for ya but he knows his grandpa too well actually everyone on my dads side knows his grandpa lol.

But almost four months tash at school thought it was alot longer then that alot of people have said that or a couple girls that he's friends with are like you guys are really cute together
and then what really made me blush so hard was when we were going down the hall and Sid was like "hey Mike " (different one form before if you know what Im talking about Sonny and Mousey'll know) anyways he's like Hey mike and hes like
"hey sid hows it going"
"good you"
"good ..... your girlfriends cute"
I went soo red in the face Sid just laughed
he said he's never seen my face go so red before except after the first time we kissed he was like your face was almost redder then you hair .... ya thanks budy I was shy enough about it as it was :P
lol he may act like a dork alomst 99% of the time but I dont know there's just something about him that caught my attention when I first met him maybe it was the "hahah your short considering your older then me"....... ya no not that 3 and a half months and I still havent figured it out is that normal ?
well anyways like hes the first guy that Iv been around that doesnt really care if I dont really feel like talking Im shy around most people or in a more social mood or just say something that just flat out doesnt make scence or when I start studdering
I have this speach impediment its not that serious but every now and then it starts acting up and I feel so stupid I start to studder or when Im thinking about saying something it comes out mixed up and he puts up with it which I really appreciate
and like today for example after last block I was at my locker and he came up behind me grabbed me and was like hey baby .... I was kinda shocked he's never talked like that before and nobodys talked to me like that before and he wasnt going to let me get on the bus haha he said I wasnt allowed to go lol hes so cute when he does that although some people find it rather annoying
and a coule days ago he gave me this note it was about a page long he was up till 2 in the morning writing it so he says and he wrote
its been about three months since we first got together and everyday I'm glad we'r together When you'r away I miss you deepy but everyday I see you just makes it better the things I love about you are your smile your laugh and just for being you mainly however I still think your crazy because your still with me , so that must mean something
that isnt all of it but everytime I read that I get freeking butterflies in my stomach I dont know why but it just happens

but then theres this girl in grad 8 ya freeking grade 8 who I went to elementary school with whos always hitting on him like last week before I got on my bus she went up to him and was like oh dont I get a kiss too then today shes like Im steeling your boyfriend like seriously you dont do that when you know they have a girlfriend and shes STANDING RIGHT THERE
ergg she just ticks me off like actually why cant she hangout with kids from her grade instead of the 10,11 and 12's its annoying I just wanna tell her to go away but I dont wanna be mean about it

but other then my gr.8 twinkie problem everything is going amazing with him and I know Iv fallin harder then I should have for him so if or when it comes to a close its going to hurt bad but it's worth it in the end becuase if it never happens your never learn from it but really in the end I would rather not see him get hurt I know Iv said that before and regret it in the end but if that never happened I wouldnt have met sid so in a way im grateful for it but after what happened I still cant talk to him or look at him Iv gotten over what happened but still I cant look at him the same anymore what he did hurt me bad and even though I want to I dont know if I can forgive him about it I want to I really do but it isnt working out so great but anyways on a happier topic I really do hope this works out between me and sid in the end he's the kinda guy I always pictured girls you know what I mean you dream about finding that perfect guy one day with certain things about him to die for well I didnt have alot to go on but really more then anything I wanted for someone to make me laugh no matter what kin d of mood I was in how my day went just for someone who could always make me laugh a bit of a country boy who isnt like all the average guys at school you know what I mean and someone accepts me for who I am and not trying to make me into some preppy girlly girl that Im not

He really is one amazing guy theres so many things
I could use to describe him but only one word fits Sid lol andI wouldnt change one thing about him it just wouldnt be the same ..

She's a rebel child and a preachers daughter

she was baptised in dirty water

she holds tight to him and the bible on the back seat of his motorcycle

left her daddy preaching to the choir you see

god love her