first dear diary blog

so I've decided to do my more personal blogs in a diary form since I cant really figure out how to put them any other way so here it goes

Dear Diary,
so this weekend I went out of town with Sid and stayed with him over night at a family friends house I was a bit nervous about staying overnight though cuz my hair is a freaking mess in the morning but I brought my flat iron and did a couple touch ups and it looked fairy decent and he could care less if I had makeup on he cant tell anyways half the time .we had allot of fun there we got alot of just us time which we dont get to do often and just hangout the two of us without many people there we got to cuddled up on the couch together just sat there and talk which I really liked even though he tickle attacked my feet -_- lol his arm fell asleep around my shoulder but he said he didnt want to move it when we were sitting together. But so basically the plan was go to Hi***n stay the night come back here in the morning with Chris the British one and I was going to teach them how to ride a horse they've never rode before so I was kinda looking forward to it I cleaned up at my place all week getting ready for these guys to come over and when we where driving back to our home town we phoned Chris he couldn't go , oh okay so it'll just me me and Sid cool I was kinda happy:) but he ditched ya not cool :( he said he wasnt feeling all that great ,he was like I'll come up next weekend though for sure I promise but he said that last weekend too two weekends in a row he's blown me off like that. I'm a pretty easy going person as it is, I dont expect much from him or my friends, but when he did that blew me off two weeks in a row honestly it felt like a little piece of my heart broke off I dont know if he's scared to come to my place ? if he doesn't want to go riding I would rather have him tell me that he doesn't want to honestly it wouldn't hurt my feelings its better then me trying to get him to do something he doesn't want to do. So my conclusion dear diary today I figured out sometimes its easier to give up and not take any risks just go on that one path you know wont get you hurt