so this summer has been so messed up Ive ben stuck at my dead end job essentially I bought a car signed up for school again
I didnt really get to see much of my friends as I would have hoped expecially mousey Im going to miss her :( and Kat we see eachother on our ways to work but thats about it ,smelder and jray Ive seen alot of them at the mall the past while since they came back from camp. The guys well the five of us only hung out twice this whole summer because cb is always working or Im working or cw is off in a different country lucky brat, its so hard cuz we all live on opposite sides of town its too weird I miss hanging out with them ya they are all guys and Im the only girl sometimes they talk about stuff and its like uhhh why why am I here but they have always been there for me whenever something has gone on and likewise me for them.
One night I was talking to cb on skype and he was like "well I dont know about you but I miss all you guys I consider you like a best friend "
wow really? I would consider them my best GUY friends ya we always go out and do fun stuff whenever we do get the chance to hangout which of late has not been very often I miss the overnight airsoft games horse back riding quading hiking snowmobiling we all use to do together
parents some days they dont seem to get it that Im still a kid and Im not ready for the real world but at the same time that I can make decisions on my own I just really wish they would trust me for once for example
sv came over to spend the night and we were in my room he had to get something out of his backpack the door was wide open
my mom is standing behind him doing the whole hand signals/ reading lips like get him the f*ck out of your room then she starts yelling at me after he left
its like wow mom thanks your trust for me is really quite incouraging Honestly I thought she would have a little more faith on me then that really ?
I guess not , then theres my dad he doesnt tip toe around the bush about it and he knows Im a teenager BUT he knows Im a smart kid and can make the right decisions for myself and doesnt get all huffy about every single thing I do in my spare time
I miss those simpler days when life was easier, I had to grow up
1 comment:
i miss you terribly my dear :(
and my blogging needs to catch up... ALOT.. you should text me or something and tell me about you anxieties and asperations :) about nervousness and embarassments. school is starting!
and i have to make a huge decision in the next couple days. who knows. you might see me sooner than you think.
but dont get your hopes up.
i'm still my indecisive and procrastonating self.
and as for mr. man being in your room. ahem. i don't think it'd matter much. i mean. if you're gonna do it. you're gonna do it ;)
parents just need to let things be. i mean. forcing you to tip toe around things just makes things worse.
you're a woman pony. (sounds like a paradox XD )
and they need to realize that.
not really a kid
not really an adult.
gosh.
the edge of adolescence sucks eh :P
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